Panic fandom has been kind of dreary lately. I don't mean that in the boring way, exactly, but there's been consternation and a lot of srs bsns crap all over the place, and that has made me... not exactly tired of them, but maybe a little Panicked out. So I've been going back to my roots in bandom, if you will, and mostly the reason why I've stuck around for so long (and definitely the reason I have the friends I do), namely My Chemical Romance.

I've noticed, though, that since the hiatus there has been an awful lack in all things MyChem-y. Frank still gets screentime, but that's because he got down with his Mario self in LeATHERMOUTH, and also because he is FRANK. The rest of them, though? I MISS them, you know? Mikey and Bob and Ray and, dear Jesus God, GERARD.

And thus, I give you random-ass picspam from my Photobucket MCR folder:

( There is a LOT of Gerard, because that is how I roll. Also a minimum of commentary, because I'm not really all that entertaining even WITHOUT the headache. )

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Mikey disappears when he turns sideways, y'all, but look at them! How cute are they! I just want to squish every single one of them in that picture!

Bandom, how I've missed you.

I hope you've seen this on MTV.com, because I know my heart is beating a little faster. NEW MCR ALBUM. OMG. A song titled "New Hair, Same Shit"! I hope they get to keep that title, for real.



Also, check that shit out, guys! Mikey is hot like burning, what else is new; I keep forgetting how nasal Gerard really is between times I see him, but he's so endearing and slightly pretentious all the same; and Frank is HOT. With the STACHE. What the actual fucking fuck? Bee theorizes it's because of the hat, and I gotta admit the hat is pretty kickass.

So this new record. Back to their roots, huh? Well, as a girl who loves The Black Parade more than is sane and healthy and isn't quite as fond of Three Cheers and Bullets (though they're good albums all the same), I'm... not worried, exactly, because I loved I'm Not Okay before I fell in love with any of the BP songs at all, but a little saddened that the Pink Floyd/Queen era seems to be going gone. I loved the over-the-top-ness of the BP album, but it's going to be interesting to see what they get up to next.

In other news, I made ratatouille today, and it was delicious. I've also cleaned out the kitchen and the bathroom, and found a breadboard. I'm hoping I'll get some baking done tomorrow before I have to do laundry at 1pm. Seriously, though, I've been such a goody two-shoes lately, it'd almost be depressing if it wasn't so fascinating. I've been cooking and cleaning and baking and doing a lot of shit that normally only my sister would do, and it actually feels kind of good.

Frank Iero has not only drunk Gerard Way's Kool-Aid. He bathes in it. Daily. Oh, my god.

THEY ARE SO ADORABLE, I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS I CAN TAKE.

Fun fact: I read about Thoreau today and could not stop laughing. FRANKIEEEEEEE.

Yeeeeeeeeees, I know, spam, whatevs, THERE IS TOO MUCH HOT HERE FOR ME TO HANDLE SO I HAVE TO SHARE.



Oh, Frank. I miss your hotass badass rockstar days. The Mario look just isn't as exciting.

So apparently I do the Frank Iero pot laugh in the mornings when I'm still tired. You know I've got it bad when I think, "awww, that's adorable!" about myself.

I've been listening to MCR interviews pretty much constantly the last couple days, and I love them so much it almost hurts. I miss their stupid faces, guys. :(

It's probably why I'm on a kick for Frank/Gerard stuff again -- how are they such boyfriends? -- which is unfortunate since there is a sad, sad lack of Frank/Gerard stuff right now. Or any MCR stuff at all. More :(

So, could you guys maybe hook me up with some radio interviews or whatever with MCR? I have a pretty recent interview with Gerard on KROQ just before ComiCon, the one with Mikey and Frank where they talk about 80's wrestlers, the one with Ray and Mikey where they talk about genetics (I couldn't avoid it, Bee practically forced it on me), and of course the BP track-by-track and Gerard's SVA lecture. And that's the extent of it, woe. I NEED MORE. Help?

Also, also? The love meme is making me grin like a lunatic. I'm pretty certain you're all set to make me cry. I LOVE YOU ALL EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.

I read ficsoreal's Shotgun yesterday, once or twice or a dozen times, and somehow that must have made a real impact, because I was actually dreaming about it this morning. Or well, I don't know, dreaming? Most of my weirdest and most coherent dreams are usually in that state of half-wakefulness where I know that I'm dreaming and am aware of the room around me, but where I'm still mostly asleep. Point being, I dreamed bandom dreams. Not the first time, but unusually coherent.

Frank was proposing to Gerard. I've been reading Vanity Fair a lot too, recently, so possibly that may have something to do with it. I'm not entirely sure if Gerard was a man or a woman, (I think he was wearing a dress or a robe of some sort, though. Dark green silk, I'm pretty sure), but he was sitting in some kind of parlor and Frank was kneeling on the floor right in front of him.

"You have to understand," he said. "It's. It's you, Gee. Your eyes, they bewitched me from the start, I can't think straight anymore." It was all very much regency novel as written by Barbara Cartland, you understand. "I think about you every second of the day," Frank went on. "I can't stop, you're always there. Please. I love you. Marry me, please." To this Gerard replied, "Please don't toy with me," and Frank said, "I'm not, I would never. My heart is on the line as much as yours."

It was really sweet actually. He sounded so earnest, and Gerard was just staring at him with his heart in his throat. I know that the realistic part of me (which the romantic, suspension-of-disbelief part tried to shush) kept wondering, "where's Mikey? Some sort of chaperone? They would never leave a young woman/name-bearer alone with a suitor like this, it's not proper."

I think Gee said yes. I'm pretty sure of it, actually, because he seemed so incredibly happy, but I woke up for real before that happened.

This is a vast improvement from the night before where I dreamed about a pretty blond girl who cut her own eyes (with bonus eyelids!) out with a kitchen knife in a fit of insanity and then woke up the next morning screaming when she realized what she had done. Or the time I dreamed about that really, really violent and bloody fisting (*shuddergag*). Or all those times when people died in my dreams. I mean, it's pretty fucking fantastic to dream something where I'm not desperately trying to claw my way into wakefulness just so I won't have to see all the blood. :/

So this is me, getting this shit out of my system... anyway, I was talking to Bee (surprising, I know) and she brought to my attention this and this by poultryofperil which I found hilarious. But it also made me think about other Buffy AUs which was actually kind of funny in and of itself. So here's my take on it.

( Lalala, I am ridiculous. )

And I'm done!

In other news, I have now 590 Beatles songs on my iTunes. I do not look forward to scour for doubles. *headdesk*

So yesterday I went through my tiny little picture cache I have saved (I have a laptop and not much space) looking for a new desktop background and I said casually to Bee, "I should do a picspam some day of Pictures That I Like For No Particular Reason At All." She said I should, I said okay. Here we are. A good random bandom picspam -- heavy on Gerard, because it IS me we're talking about, but I have a fair bit of Panic in there too.


( Or maybe I should say, it's a Gerard Way picspam with an assortment of his oddly coiffed little friends and other bandom oddities. Not very dial-up friendly, I'd imagine. )

So Bee and I were dicking around on AIM like we usually do last night and we got in on a conversation about hardware and naming things. Bee told me that her laptop is called Sylar. Yes, after the brainsucking evil dude from Heroes. It was a thing. So, thinking about it, I realized that my laptop is kind of hard to pin down, but believe you me, he's one crabby, kind of campy, faggy bitch so I decided to name him Carson and get it over with. Say hi!

Randomness aside, I'm a little crabby myself right now. Why can't plotbunnies spring from our minds like Athena, a fully formed fanfic to just be posted? Because, you know, I'm good with plotbunnies. At times, with sufficient inspiration, I'd even say I'm brilliant at them. What I'm not so brilliant at? Writing them.

The offending piece in question is the Panic genderswap gsf AU FROM HELL. I love it dearly, but it hates my guts. See, the thing is, I've been trying to polish it, but here's the kicker -- I don't know shit about girl oral, more's the pity, and especially not how to write it from the giver's point of view. Hence I have a sex scene that somehow trips from a pretty solid Brennan POV into a sudden Spencer POV. Fucking POV shifts.

I realized that if I'm going to write this shit, I'm going to have at least two POVs. I really, really don't want to switch Brennan's POV around in the sex scene, not to mention that there are too few gsf fics out there from Brendon's POV. He needs some lovin', even as a girl.

I think I may have figured out a place to start too, but the plot is kind of iffy. It's mostly, you know, they're actors, they meet and... sex. Not much meat to it, I'm afraid. *sigh*

I hope all of you realize that just because I talk about it doesn't mean that I will actually write it, though. Chances are it will never be finished, but I figure I can at least polish the sex scene up a bit and flesh it out, and then maybe post it here. I did promise Aly I would try, at least.

But! My genderswap bunnies are legion and right now the Sister Act 2 AU thing is eating my brain. I know I pitched it as an all boy thing, but well, then kitsune_tsuki happened and she enabled me. So right now I cannot stop thinking about cocky little Frankie Iero making eyes at Mr. Way during chior practice and Catherine, "Cash", Colligan pouting at her BFF Alexa DeLeon about how Alex Marshall is like, so cute, but he doesn't even notice her even though she totally flirts like crazy AND popped a few extra buttons on her uniform yesterday. Poor Cash. And then, you know, Gabi and Billie's long-legged lesbian romance, and everything just went downhill from there.

Yeah, I don't even know either.

You've probably seen this pics a million times already, but still. For posterity.

( Made my night, no lie. )

And honestly? I am sad that neither Mikey nor Gerard donned the gym shorts. I keep cracking up just imagining Mikey's little knock-kneed legs in a pair of shorts. And Gerard! God, having seen him at sixteen, can you imagine how fucking AWKWARD he must have been in high school? Garry at gym class! I need this in my LIFE. GEE ILU.

Further chatficcings (or chatplottings, whatever works). Now with bonus input from mwestbelle as well, which can only make this better.

( In which Gerard is insane, Frank prescribes to his religion and Mikey is SAD. )

Annnd here I go again. So I was talking to Bee on AIM just now, and Heaven Help Us came on (I've had it stuck in my head all day, I blame stepps). So I idly rattled off my favourite piece of lyric of that song: "'Cause mostly I've been sprawled on these cathedral steps while spitting out the blood and screaming, 'Someone save us!'"

And well.

( The chat that followed. )

( Further discussion on the subject )

First things first, thank you SO MUCH, mckays_girl, for the v-rose for Valentines. *glomps you* It pretty much made my day when I finally saw it. You are the best, sweetie.

( Pics from the MCR Rio de Janeiro concert. )

So, does anyone know anything about any stage antics? My flist has been awfully quiet about this.

The MCR Friday Five! I only ever do these when different_shade posts them really, but these are interesting, so let's go.

1- Gerard is known to write words and phrases on his arms and neck. Which of these words or phrases is your favourite?
I don't actually remember that many of them, but I was kind of fond of the CATHOLIC one. Why I couldn't tell you, but I like it. Possibly because Gerard was also smoking hot when he had that on his neck, but, well.

2- Which of Franks many tattoos is your favourite and why?
The Lady of Sorrows, because a) I am weird and have a thing about Catholic saints, and b) I really, really love the look of her, with the robe and the eyes and everything.

3- Has MCR inspired you to do or try something you normally wouldn't?
*laughs* You did see my iconage post back there, didn't you? That's half fandom, half MCR, right there.

4- If you got to plan a day out with MCR what would you do first?
I don't know. I wouldn't want it to be any different from a normal day for them, you know? Not a day they spend with a fan, but a day they'd spend with a friend, just hanging out, talking about all sorts of things, and geeking out about everything and nothing. Nothing big, just... being who they are without the lights and the cameras.

5- Has obsession ever got the better of you and made you do or say something stupid?
Let's not go there, okay. *g*

Oh! And, before I forget. I wasn't around six months ago August 11th, because I was still immersed in SGA fandom, so I'll just have to make the toast now. 3½ years sober, Gerard. Congratulations.

Single interviews with Mikeyway = the best thing in the history of things, Y/Y? He's funny and smart and just a little bit peculiar (which they all are, and hey, he's a Way) and I love him to itty bitty bits, for real.

So on that note, a message from me to you, Gerard: I love you to a degree that is truly stupid and you're my favourite boy EVER and fuck it should be illegal to be that fucking pretty, but hello, Mr. Motormouth. Let the other boys talk too, yeah?

Also, Frank. You. I. I can't. Asdjhsdgdsaklldhagdjdfjsdlkfj! *falls over*

Yes, I have been watching interviews again, why do you ask?

Now for something completely different. SGA fans: Jon Stewart? REALLY? I KNEW there was a reason I adored that guy. Also, Jewel Staite. Mmmmmm. I may or may not be developing a crush.

Well. I'm still in shock, but over to more amusing news.

Over on wolfshirts there was a post about a bandom version of Wicked (which would be AWESOME, no lie) and since yesterday I've been listening to the soundtrack and put the bandom boys in their places. The romance between Glinda and Elphaba -- especially if you, like me, haven't actually seen the play -- is staggering. Also, quite amusing. I keep imagining Frank and Gerard singing What is this feeling? and break down somewhere around the intro. "Dearest, darlingest momsie and popsickle..." I'm pretty sure people think Gerard is strange because he's the only one around who is completely unadorned -- no tattoos, see? He was born with that unfortunate needle phobia, and miles of pale skin. Most people think he's very strange... even Mikey has tattoos.

Also, Gerard all excited to meet the Wizard/Pete Wentz? Only in this universe, I am pretty certain. Furthermore, imagining Pete Wentz singing A Sentimental Man breaks my brain for real. Not that Joel Grey is a fantastic singer, everything considered, but at least the man can stay in tune.

And Defying Gravity. Dear God, I've invented a whole choreography for the thing between Gee and Frankie and it's all amusing, but also kind of sad and oh, poor boys. Especially if they're all in love and shit, but haven't made a move about it yet, because they're just so different, and have only just decided that they're best friends, but they want to be more and oh. Poor boys. It's kind of fun in a way, especially since the roles of Glinda and Fiyero mix a lot.

I would almost write it myself if a) I could write it, b) I had actually seen the play, not just read about it and read the book once, c) if I could figure out a way to make it less angsty, because I don't want Mikey to be evil (I have no qualms about making Pete evil, interestingly enough), and d) if I could figure out a way to incorporate the songs without turning it into badfic. I do not trust my own capabilities. Also, it would be SO much better if I could actually convince Gerard Way to sing the songs.

Unrelatedly, I've been reading xkcd comics for a little while, and how sad is it that it actually makes me laugh?

P.S. Aly! I'll be in your eternal debt if you can make me a Frank/Gerard Wicked icon! Gerard as Elphie and Frank as Glinda, would it not be the most awesome thing of all time? Especially, especially, if Gerard was green. Just sayin'. :D